As she entered the bedroom I caught hold of her hand , she was surprised and started to leave her hand, but I pulled her closer to me and gave a smooc... on her lips my tongue licking her tongue, she freed herself from me and asked me what was I doing. Without waiting for her response I again caught hold of her and pulled her in my arms, this time she did not resisted and came into my arms. Then slowly I put her on the bed and started kissing her, I kissed her forehead her lips, my hands were. I reread the letter one last time to make sure everything I want to say is said.********Sir,I know I left without warning and without explanation. It was so close to when I was going to be moving in with you and in a way I got scared. I got scared of the commitment and such a young age. I got scared at the thought of giving myself to you fully, even though that is all I ever wanted and needed. I was afraid of who I was, and had yet to understand what my role in life meant. I was only 17. I did. They post a list looking for a guy to watch them and "maybe join in". I had jerked of to Internet porn and was ready for something different so I replied. After a few emails and talks on the phone we agreed to meet at their house.When I got to their house Cindi met me at the door. Cindi is 41 yrs old and stunning! Cindy was wearing just a robe and high heals. Come on in and get comfortable"...Jay was sitting on the couch in a pair of shorts smoking a joint. Welcome he said as he passed me. Your head spins some too, thinking about how rapidly this all happened.Your thoughts quickly return to your baby on your lap. You carry me back to the living room and put me on my blanket. And as I kneel on it, you swat me one more time, through my diaper now, and tell me to stay put. I nod to you over my shoulder and give you a weak smile. Your heart almost melts at that look.You hurry back to the bedroom, but before you finish packing, you go directly to the bathroom and jerk yourself swiftly.