” വേണ്ട നീ ഇപ്പോള്‍ എവിടെയാണ്?” ചേച്ചി ചോദിച്ചു. “ഇവിടെ �...ീടിനു പുറത്തുള്ള ആട്ടു കട്ടിലില്‍ ഉണ്ട്.” ചേച്ചി കാള്‍ കട്ട്‌ ചെയ്തു. ശേ ഇവിടെയാണെന്ന് പറയണ്ടായിരുന്നു. എങ്ങനെയെങ്കിലും സമ്മതിപ്പികാമായിരുനു, ഇതൊക്കെ ആലോചിച്ചു ഞാന്‍ കട്ടിലിലേക്ക് മറിഞ്ഞു. നല്ല ക്ഷീനമുണ്ട്. അവിടെ കിടന്നുറങ്ങിയാല്‍ കുഴപ്പമാകും എന്നൊന്നും ഞാന്‍ ആലോചിച്ചില്ല. കിടന്നപോള്‍ തന്നെ കന്നടയുന്നത് പോലെ തോന്നി.അപ്പോള്‍ അതാ ഇരുളില്‍ മുന്നിലൊരു രൂപം !!! എനിക്ക് വിശ്വസിക്കാന്‍ കഴിഞ്ഞില്ല. ചേച്ചി അതാ എന്റെ മുന്‍പില്‍. ഇത്. There was nothing. I kicked my car a couple of times out of frustration, sat down on the side of the road, pulled my legs close to my chest, and started crying. Jonathan found me the following morning. I was still on the side of the road, the tears had long dried. Not really caring if Jonathan was a homicidal maniac intent on rape and murder, I got in his car. Then, he was driving a dark blue Jag. Jonathan didn’t ask me any questions, not even my name. I also kept my thoughts and words to. Well work something out. Really. Youre not angry with me? Or shocked? No, not shocked. I realise that your sexual appetites have not diminished the way that mine have. I am scared though, because I cant imagine living without you after all these years. I still love you, Bill, and I hope that you still love me. Oh! Yes, Vera! I truly love you. Its just … I didnt really know how to express the turmoil of emotions that I was experiencing. I wanted to reassure Vera, but I also wanted to fuck. ”“What’s it Caroline?” Naughty but I couldn’t resist. “Bluntly, sex Ian. I just don’t go there. And then you just lay there enjoying yourself and you're not even shocked by my coming into your bedroom doing what you were doing and watching a video at the same time. I felt ashamed at butting in to your room, jealous of your being able to do it without guilt, distracted by you're doing it. Yes, and I haven’t seen anything like that in my life. So yes I was distracted by what happened and still.
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