- 3:34AMHim:3:34AM - On the way.I took my cross-dressing shit out of my hiding spot under my bed, stuffed it in my gym bad, and put on a hoodie. I lef... the dorms through the fire exit where there’s literally no lights so I’m sure nobody saw me. Thank god nobody was out for a smoke.There was a red car parked at the far end of the parking lot. I looked at the car with my heart racing, looking at the fluorescent parking lamps that led to the car like a cookie trail. The only civilization in sight. Her whole body shuddered."That's what you get, bitch!"Mimi turned away, embarrassed and afraid. These people were lunatics! Emotionally, she was suffering with the older girl, but deep down inside her there was another feeling, a growing sensation between her own tightly closed thighs that she could not--did not--want to name. She was humiliated that something so obscene and degrading could affect her this way. And she was afraid of her reaction, too.Then her eyes opened wide with terror, a. "Then she got behind me, and again she pulled back my elbows, but this time she wrapped my forearms with rope, round and round. When she had them well wrapped, she pulled the rope tight.Pain. Real pain. Through my shoulders and joints. No sissy little tweaks or pinches. I bit down hard and hissed. I grunted and squirmed. I couldn't take it. She pulled a bit more and I felt my elbows touch. Then I felt her tie off the rope and cinch up the knot."How's that?" she asked."Oh fuck it hurts." I. She sobbed on the ground, arms around her knees in a fetal position. Random thoughts intruded upon her as she cried. I'll never be able to go out in public. Ever again. Sex. Sex is out. Who would fu- have sex with someone that looked like me? A fetishist who looks at me and only sees a cow? Oh god. What if it doesn't stop? What if it keeps going and one morning I wake up and I'm just a fat ugly cow on four legs? Would it be worse to still think like a human or to lose myself completely in it?.