I told her, "Neither can I. I can’t seem to get you off my mind." Just above a whisper she said, "I’ve been lying here thinking of you, too." I ...atted the side of the bed nearest her and asked, "Why don’t you join me here?" She hesitated before answering, "I don’t know. I don’t think I should." "Get your beautiful little butt over here, Damini," I gently ordered. Damini instantly complied. As I lifted the covers for her, she climbed in bed and scooted toward me. I cradled her in my arm and. I knew they might not let me near him, but I had to get to him. It was so important to get to him. I had to see him. My tears were already falling because I knew what they would think.We had been driving around in the rain, but being careful. We had spent the night out while my boyfriend was out doing his thing. I knew he wouldn't go too far. He never left me alone for very long.I had heard the accident reported on the news as having just occurred. I was nearby. It was imperative that I get to. “But this isn’t over, do you understand? I’m not going back to the loneliness of yesterday. If John doesn’t give me what I need, I’m going to take it from you. Even if he does, I still may want you now and then. And when I call, you will come. That is the deal. Do you understand?”I nodded, numbly.“I need to hear you say it, Jack. I won’t tolerate any ambiguity here.”“Yes,” I said, “I understand. I will come when you call.” I could not think of another way forward that preserved life as I knew. So we agreed 2 another meeting. we would see eachother in a week, and we both knew what that was gonna be about.. Friday night, he would pick me up in his car and we would drive 2 somewhere deserted.I did all the preparations, took a bath, shaved etc. It was about 10 pm when i got a ring, it was him, he would be at my house in 30 min. I was starting to get nervous, and i couldnt sit still. about 25 min later i got a text: Im here, come outside. I took a deep breath and got outside, there he.