To the very gates of Hell I would always want Shawn, always want his heart, his sex and loving embrace. There would always be a fiery passion between ...s, that’s why it was doubtful we would remain friends. I said nothing. I could think of nothing to say. I only stared after him, tears glazing my eyes into a gauzy portrait of abandonment. I was a good girl, though, and I didn’t break down until I knew he was out of earshot. * * * The following weeks passed me in a very uncomfortable way. I. It wasn't long before I had an erection. After the makeuplesson, I tried to kiss her, but she stopped me."We need to talk," she said. "Things are now changed between us. BeforeI was thinking about us in the long term, like marriage, but that haschanged. I can't see myself living with you or marrying a crossdresser.I still really like you and want to see you, but I really don't see usstaying together after graduation."I was stunned to say the least."I'm the same person I was before," I. I was still dipping into one of those skinny chicks but, like I said, that got old pretty fast once I was tapping Nancy. So I kept asking her out every night that I could and this other guy I knew, who didn’t know I was dating her, was complaining because it was harder to get time to be with her. Good!Then one time, when we just finished a good fuck, Nancy asked me something, “You sure do like my titties! Probably better than anybody I can think of. I really enjoy that, I want you to know.. If he had been a stranger I would have left the scene immediately to kick him out or threaten with a call to the cops. Instead, I give him some time. Bitch, he calls me as if it were my name. He begins to sit up, scooting out from underneath me. The game of cat and mouse has begun. Im the mouse: small, quick, crafty. He, the cat: hungry, fierce, predatory. Fuck you, I spit with feigned hatred. He chuckles and grabs onto my arm and ankle to pull me towards him. Come here, he says as I am.