I shuddered, my limbs trembled, for a moment my sense of hearing was obliterated, and my feet refused to do their office. I called upon God, thought o... Isidor and prayed for that strength and for moral self-possession, which lifts one above all that is physical and common, and cares nothing for even the most fashionable mob.All this sustained me and, proud and determined, I stepped forward. My appearance and the history of what had brought me here set all tongues in motion, and immediately. Sorry honey but this is what it’s like to be a woman.”She looked at me with a lot of apprehension as she grabbed the douche from me and said, “This is so unfair!! All boys have to do is use soap to clean themselves. Will you help me and push it inside of me. Will you please help me? If you’ve seen mommy do it before then you know how.”Now, this was a crazy request but I couldn’t help to see how her nervous her face was. I put my hands on the bottle thingy and she put her hands over mine. She. It looked as if there was nothing here, but the boys and I found a large bedroom, with an oversized king bed, hidden behind a fake wall used to conceal the door.“It was our duty to keep these special rooms cleaned should they once again be needed. They hid this room after moving us to the servant’s quarters,” one girl told me. “None can give us details about why someone hid it.”Before anyone could hazard a guess, a voice from the door said, “My dear children. How much I have mistreated you, all. Whenever I confronted her, she d put a sordid face.' ... but I m stupid.' Till this day we never talked heart to heart, or rather Broca's area to area. She always had her masks.Wish I could see the lady behind the mask. She is the reason, we kids have careers. She would sit with us, while we studied. She asked us questions, though never knew the answers. Promised us gifts, she could never buy, took a stick when her temper failed, became hysterical when the stick failed, but she did get her.