This night we went to bed and only played for a while before drifting off to sleep.It became school, practice, study, and sleep and then start over ag...in, with the only breaks being away games. The girls were no longer cheerleaders, so they couldn’t go with me on the bus, making away games pretty dull. I used the time to study, as my classes were getting tougher. Or was it that I was taking tougher courses?I had figured out that I should finish with the pre-med courses plus the extra courses I. And a few that were real nasty and wanted to fuck and be fucked. I thought about giving it a try. But deep inside I did not think I would really go through with it. There was one guy I talked with a lot. We were into a lot of the same stuff. He was always wanting to get to gather and get nasty. But I could never get up the nerve to meet him. Last weekend he asked me again if I was ready to hook up. I do not know what got into me. I must have been real fucking horny. Cause I told him sure. . that Shelly creature possibly have meant that much to you? Weren't you aware that I knew all along? Don't misunderstand... I knew you'd come back to me; you always did... but I was afraid that Jamey'd find out and there'd be a terrible fight.Why, Cal? Why did you have to take your life?By the time Susan reached home her cheeks were wet with tears. It wasn't uncommon, not since his death, but now the distances were less than when they still lived on Jamey's estate; hence, her tears didn't have. ”“Is anyone close to you uncomfortable with it?”“Jesse,” I chuckled. “He’s actively avoided doing what I did, and certainly not for lack of opportunity!”“Your eldest son?”“He believes in serial monogamy. He doesn’t approve of my choices, but he does freely agree that they are mine to make.”“What about the other kids?”“Neutral, generally. Matthew, Albert, and Stephie are already in their lifetime relationships. Michael and Ashley aren’t particularly concerned about it.”“You didn’t mention your.