When I was curled on the floor I realized that I would have to do whatever they wanted and that what I wanted didn't matter. I hated that. But it didn...t matter what I hated or loved. All that mattered was my enthusiastic compliance. I could choose to gleefully do whatever they wanted me to do, or to be choked half to death and then to do it anyway. Which is to say, I had no choice. I was a pet. An animal.We arrived at the Club. We got out of the limo and Roddy led me to the front door with the. ” I hit the steering wheel making the horn sound loudly. My thoughts were on what I had saw. Unbelievable that Nathaniel and Charlie were involved. ‘That should have been me.’ I started the car up, proceeding to drive. I could go home and do some soul searching. Either I would let go of my feelings for Nathaniel completely or I’d let him know that it was not too late for me or us to have that experience and be tight. Chapter Five Over the next few days after that meeting in the locker room,. She let go and smiled at me the sweetest smile I've received in a while. I was frozen for a moment before she broke the silence. "You're looking at me again! I can't concentrate when you do that" she said with a cheeky grin on her face. She turned back to her book, picked up her pen and began to write again, finishing off some descriptive paragraphs we had started earlier. Still in shock at her forwardness, I slowly found my mind again and went back to watching her work, but she soon stopped. When I brought our drinks back, she had moved to the middle of the couch. I sat next to her when she said, “I sure hate being alone all the time”. I told her that he had to be crazy to leave such an attractive woman at home so often…and that he was a fool to spend so much of his free time with his friends. I noticed that her leg was against mine and she was leaning very close to me. Then she said, “Would you just hold me for a while? I really need to be hugged and held for a while”. Wow! She.