I went next door and rang the doorbell. She wasn’t ready even though I knew she had a new dress just for prom. The reason I knew this is I had paid ...or it. I just didn’t know what it looked like.I had given her Mother the money to go with her to buy the dress. She wasn’t to know who paid for it. And especially that it was from me. By 5:30 I was beginning to worry that she was having second thoughts. Even though it wasn’t protocol for the date to go to her room I was worried. I took the stairs 2. It’s been obvious for a long time. But hearing the words was still a kick in the nuts. I’ve loved her so very much for so long.It’s going to be a long fucking year!Lea finally got up and said goodnight. I watched her leaving, going back to Jim. She seems a little embarrassed but she’s anxious to get back to him and it shows.Like most men, from what I’ve heard, I often fall asleep quickly after making love. But not that night. I lay there in the dark and I know for a fact now that my marriage is. No, John... please... take it out... please, John, take it out, John!"He gives no sign of hearing a word that I have said. "John, no, we have never done this. We always agreed you are too big or rather I am too small. You'll tear me apart." I turn my head, trying to see John, but he is bent over my back and I cannot see his eyes.Finally he answers, his voice behind me, close to my ear. "Relax, Peggy, I won't hurt you. Things are going to be different from now on, the kids are gone, scream, cry. One hand was inside her ripped jeans, the other hand was inside of her torn-up shirt. When I approached her, she stopped rubbing herself and put her tongue in my mouth. After the kiss, she said:"I want to fuck you hard."I asked:"Is that an invitation?"Then, she said:"I know who you are, I've seen your movies. I have watched you perform, now, I want you to perform for me. Please fuck me, I want it so bad. I am dripping wet."I said:"Okay, let's fuck, but, on camera."So, Karen handed me a camera.