I had wanted to reach out my hand to touch his cock as I said the words, I’d fantasised about doing exactly that, but I’d used all my courage to s...y the words and I just didn’t have enough for that last, bold step. I actually think it was that last look of embarrassment and my blush that cracked his façade and reached his heart where none of my boldness had. His breath hissed, his colour matched mine, and he actually stuttered as he answered.“Kerry, you are the sexiest girl I have ever seen,. He then came back to his bed. He was happy. His happiness increased in the morning seeing a sexy smile on Sam's face. It was Sunday and sometime after breakfast Sam came to him and asked," Let’s go out together". Kris had no reason to refuse such an exciting proposition. They went out to the market, from there took a taxi to a restaurant. After lunch, they went to a cinema hall. Kris was saying yes to all that Sam was suggesting. He was getting blown away in a powerful sway of super excited. Thunder and lightning. Waves as high as office blocks. The piercingscreams of terrified children. Tearful couples saying goodbye to oneanother. Grown men fighting over life jackets as the order to abandon shipis relayed over the crackling tannoy. A muscular arm pushing me aside, itsowner unaware of the bulging maternity dress beneath my coat. A priestoffering the last rites to those the rafts and dinghies cannot take. Thehorrific emptiness in the eyes of a young crewman who knows he willshortly. How do you explain to children that are 5 and 6 that their mother doesn't want anything to do with them. There were many nights that I had two little bodies snuggled up to me in bed. They knew their mother was gone and were afraid that I would disappear too.It took a couple of months but I finally convinced them that no matter what I would always come home to them. No matter what, I would always be there with them. Soon they were able to sleep in their own beds without nightmares; or at least.