The ashes are in the metal can beside the house. I can shovel some of them into the smaller plastic trashcan on wheels, then roll it to the edge of th... gully and tip it over.I pay you because that isn't my first choice, but I can manage," I said building up a head of steam. "So if you don't want my money, just say so and there will be no hard feelings. One has nothing to do with the other." Okay, let me do my chores before you threaten me again," he said."Fair enough," I replied.I drank coffee. "Honey?" I said, turning my head to the side.He was halfway through the motion of spanking me with the hairbrush but stopped short. Looking annoyed, he asked, "Yes?"I turned fully over on my side, facing him. My cotton pajamas were still in place and I had my eleven-year-old look about me, but I spoke in my normal adult voice. "How angry are you right now?"He looked at me quizzically and thought for a moment. "Not very," he answered. "Actually, I'm more annoyed that you interrupted me than I am. She was halfway through it when a short, stocky man came up to her and stuck out his hand. "I'm Ara Petrosian. Bring your drink and come on up to the office." Janice followed him to the back of the club and they got on an elevator. They got in and rode up to the top floor of the three-story building and when they got off she followed the man down a hallway and into a fairly large office where another man was seated and waiting for them. He stood up as Janice approached, "Mrs. Johnson. I'm John,. Teloni. Jesus. He was a boy, just like the other boys I knew, just likehank and Leon and Janus and Jamie. He was a boy just like any of themand yet he really did not seem to be just that to me any more. Therewere feelings there bound up within me that I had little control over,and that's something I'd never experienced before. Like this, I was aslave to feelings that I could barely sense but to which I had to obeyand more than obey, alternatively, not that I'm sure there is even anoption any.