I resisted the urge to throw myself overboard that first night as everything I saw, touched or did seemed to remind me of Edna, where we had met and f...llen in love, but I forced myself into the new work routine and I found myself enjoying the freedom of just playing whatever I wished, when I wished, and soon was nearly a constant sight at all hours of the day or night in the piano bar. My music became a mirror of my moods, surrounded by delighted little old ladies from London, Berlin or Paris,. I understood one thing surely that even though she saw me noticing her changing the dress she did not tell me anything. So I was kind of considered as green signal. I saw her back was so sexy. The night costume had a broad opening in the back and giving a sexy shape of her back.I could not control, I slowly went behind her and I slowly planted my lips on her shoulder. She suddenly freeze at that point and did not even turn back to see me. She just stood frozen for a minute. I then slowly. She's going over to the next step in life and you're leaving her with the knowledge that when she goes, you will kill yourself because of her. How do you suppose that makes her feel? You are doing more to hurt her than you imagine. Not only does she have to deal with her dying; she has to worry about your worthless ass too. That's what you are too, by the way. A worthless ass." What do you know about anything? What do you know?" I know that Becky has done things for you that you have no idea. .? Is that reallyyou..?" Yeah...why?" I asked, suddenly becoming afraid. I'd had the growingfeeling that something was seriously wrong and Nikki's reactions justconfirmed it."Who was the high school prom queen?" she abruptly asked me. I blinkedin surprise at the question then reminded her that she'd been the promqueen. She quickly followed that up with, "And who was the prom king?" Jason Fisher," I answered, muttering, "smug bastard..." It is you," she gasped, shaking her head. "How in the.