"Are YOU gonna suck Terence's cock? Are you gonna fuck him?"Teela flashed a glance at Rick, "I dunno..." The shoe is on the other foot now, isn't it?"...Beth chuckled. "I'm surprised you didn't pay more attention to our earlier talk! For both of you, it's VERY early in your relationships -- you don't REALLY have a handle on each other's wants and needs. So even if you're interested, you have to think about what Rick will think about you if you do it. And if you drop it in Rick's lap, HE has to. Helen held the hand of her youngest Carrie Lamb, red-eyed and newly widowed, while across from them sat Beth Nichols happily married to a surgeon and Debbie Muir who’d become wealthy after being divorced by an elderly attorney. It was rumored Debbie was bedding a new man every week but when asked about that by Beth had laughed and said, ‘I wish.’ Debbie, taking a white wine from her father said, ‘Carrie will you keep the name Lamb or revert to Nelson?’ Carrie’s answer was to burst into tears.. Bucking off the sheets as the flames consumed me, lighting every synapse at once and flushing my perspiring body with its desperate, chemical payload.The welcome firecrackers in my head would bring closure, at least for one night, allowing me to float to sleep in the sticky aftermath. A pattern repeated almost nightly until, well, the stapler incident.It started innocently enough. My boss called me to her office and asked if I'd assemble a study group from the workforce. Volunteers to connect. Through diet I've become slender, and through shapewear I have asomewhat defined waist. I have been taking propecia, which is doingwonders for my hair, but is also an androgen blocker. I've also beentaking herbal supplements for breast development which may be placebos,but I do have some results to show for it. Small results, but resultsnonetheless.Still, I was born male and maintain certain male libidinal desires. Inorder for our relationship to work, these desires must be controlled.