.. it would happen.Let alone I would have imagined that it would have happened with Alex and yet, in retrospect, the reasons were all there.Here I can...tell you only one: Alex had a much bigger cock than mine.If they must be horns, why stay in the "minimum wage"?Despite of many porn stories,there were other personal reasons between Monia and Alex: he was blind and Monia had a desease on her legs. She always believed herself hugly so she chose a man unable to judge her. .But, you know how it. . After the divorce, she didn't date at all the whole time we were living in Pittsburgh. The whole time! And when we came here -- it was 2001 -- she went back to college, got her master's and started the whole career as a nurse practitioner. It's true she dated a little here. Men she met in her work, mostly. But she's been out of circulation most of the time for my entire life with her!" You think her marriage soured her on the male sex that much?" No. No, I don't. Their break-up wasn't like. ‘Ok, thank you for all that you shared,’ Emma stated. ‘Now, all of you go take a break and come back in an hour. We should have a decision by then.’ All the women stood from the table and headed for the door. Vivian and Leslie embraced tightly before they exited. I was a nervous wreck. What was the next step? What were our options? When the door closed behind Penny, who was the last one out, Emma did not waste a moment. ‘What are we going to do,’ she asked me. ‘I’m not sure,’ I admitted. ‘What. I avoided looking at him, but in truth he was never out of mymind. By Thursday, I felt I had gained 100 pounds (actually, it was only5) and seemed to take a perverse pleasure in how soft my tummy seemed tobecome."Would Paul love me if I got fat?" I asked myself aloud one night, posingin front of the mirror in the nude. I extended my stomach a bit, just tosee how I'd look. There truly wasn't much of a tummy there, yet."Some men like chubby women," I laughed, pinching a small roll of fat atmy.