These are simple lessons, but until I went all theway, pushed the pendulum all the way out and found myown center I couldn?t possibly act in a loving,...openand intimate way. My pleasure is very much in givingpleasure, but until I could receive pleasure, be inmy own love, my own Eros, there is no way I could bein the love of others.You ask what I fear. I fear that I will crust up andstart living from fear again, like thosecrossdressers I see. I fear that my heart will bebroken one too many times. I'll be forever in your debt..."Sam interrupted again, "I don't have any clothes on. I'm in your bed. Did we ... Did we... , I kind of remember but not really. Did we... ?" Did we have sex? Is that what you are trying to say?" Amy finished Sam's question and laughed.Sam blushed and nodded."Unfortunately, the answer is "no". I wish that we had but I was in far too bad of shape. You do have a nice soft body though. When I woke up snuggled up against you. It felt great. Oh, and Sam, you might as. As she reached the low wooden door that led into the Maid's Room, she was shocked to hear a fervent scraping, scratching sound coming from inside. Was there an animal or bird in the room? She was worried about Penelope who had long since been allowed to go to bed, but had a horrid vision of a rat leaping at her or some giant crow hurtling towards her face when she opened the door. Was Penelope inside?She gently knocked at the door with the back of her hand. The sound stopped. She knocked again,. Kainene winced at the impact and hugged her back, looking at a sullen Gwen who packed up her stuff and skulked back to her room. ‘Oh my God, Nens! You’re like skin and bone now. I mean, you’ve always been skinny but you’re like…skeletal now. Courtney Love would wanna trade anorexic stories with you.’ Lorna exclaimed looking at Kainene with horror and pity in her eyes. Kainene rolled her eyes and walked to her room, Lorna close behind her. ‘Whatever, Lornes. I just haven’t had time for eating..