Playing the part, without the intentions of actually becoming what I needed to be, should have been, was only self-abuse. That is why, I perceived the...young woman in Janice's mirror, to be mocking me.It's a difficult decision to make, to change one's life so entirely. For many an even harder decision than mine was.I could, of course, question my mother's and Janice's influence on me. That I had been indoctrinated, into believing, that I would be better off female than male.Still, a lot of how. Now I was devoid of cock for almost 2 weeks, so it was no surprise that I took that cock in my mouth and began to suck him to full erection. It wasn't long before he was full erect. 6.5 inches, cut and thin with a huge mushroom head. Exactly what I love. I stroked him as I sucked the head of his cock, my tongue danced in and out of his urethra. I could hear him moan in pleasure. I took a deep breath, closed my eyes and then forced myself on his cock trying to deepthroat him all the way. I was. "Diane gave her a tiny smile and a nod. She would not have minded if it were a strip-tease. Debby was not exactly hard to look at nude. "Um ... do you need me to prepare like that, too?" Only if you want to, dear," Debby said as she shed her blouse. "I want to try something different today. I want you to try to store the energy you generate rather than project it at me."Diane was about to say something when Debby removed her bra, letting her generous breasts spill over her chest. She had seen. "Are you feeling the rush"? "It is really turning me on". "Come on I have something better". He took me to the movie theater and we parked at the far end of the lot. "Now take all your clothes off". "What" I asked? "Take them all off; you thought flashing was a rush, just think about the chance of getting caught naked". I was scared; but Bill was so excited it really turned me on. He unzipped his pants and pulled out his already erect cock. "Are you going to get undressed". I asked. "Nope just.