OK, you've got a deal. Personally, it sounds kind of lame assed as she'll never look at it, but as you said, at least you'll have made the effort." He...e, here's twen—" Hey, don't bother," the guy responded with a grin. "Now that I know what's up, I'm not worried. As one lonely guy to another, I figure it's part of the guy code. Help a brother out when he's trying to make a connection. I'm glad to do it." Look, take it anyway. I want to send it priority so it gets there as soon as possible,. I cringed as I recalled my own fear and horror, and how I had clung to Arden when she visited from the front. She had tried. I know she had. But her anguished eyes and shaking hands still haunted my dreams.***I kept myself busy that first day the Company was in town, hoping to avoid both Captain Arden and my feelings. I helped unload the supplies they brought, and got underfoot in the kitchen until Cook shooed me out with a curse.Jaden laughed at my inability to focus, assuming a general swoon. "That doesn't mean that they really want me to go live with them, or that I would go."Jessica looked up at me. She was blinking her eyes and it didn't take a rocket scientist to know she' been on the brink of crying."John, are ... will you be ok by yourself for a few minutes?" Theresa asked."I'm sure I will, why?" Jessica and I need to take a little drive." We do? Where are we going, Mom?" You'll see."I was glad when they came back. A few minutes turned out to be almost two hours. Although I. She got out of the car at her apartment and wanted to howl when he went up the stairs first, took her key and made her wait while he checked inside.She stormed into her apartment, muttering under her breath. When would he understand that she was a cop too, had signed on to take just the same kind of risks that he did.He let her mutter, he let her storm. He watched while she pulled out a roll bag and started throwing clothing in it. She grabbed her bag from the bathroom, added her toothbrush and.