As I turned to look, I noticed Adriana in the doorway with her hand between her legs. Quickly jumping up, I asked her, how long have you been standing...there. Adriana looked sheepishly at me and said, long enough. Followed by a question, Unxle do you remember when we use to wrestle around? As she was asking, she starting walking closer. She was wearing a loose pajama set, the shorts were small enough the expose the bottom of her cheeks, and top was thin, showing off her hard nipples, just than I. Most of the girls ordered surf & turf combos. Ced had a burger. His security guard ordered a steak. The team’s coach picked a Greek salad. The conversation was lively. Ced ignored his mom’s demands of a bill less than five hundred. He was going all in. Only his security man and the coach were of age to drink and he made sure the waitress kept them full of spirits. In the end, the night cost him nearly five large on his AMEX.Ced, in an act of smartness, decided the security man and the dancers. They were all sad, with deep meaning if you listened long and well enough. Some of them had a whispered sort of hope in them, but… there was no hope for me. The songs spelled it out – I-LOVE-U – and… she loved him. I spent a second wondering why she hadn’t spelled out YOU, when LOVE was spelled out in full, it didn’t seem like Mary somehow, but then I realized I really didn’t know her well enough to make assumptions about… anything. I walked out of the hospital, my mind filled with thoughts of. .. impossible.But in this life he not only hunted ... he kept a Cocker Spaniel.In my first life he died in 1959 ... people wouldn't listen ... they wouldn't listen when I told them about the puppies ... or the things he did to cats."Charles wouldn't do that. Your father was an honorable man," the townspeople would reply.Don't talk to me about honor ... he was a lawyer.Maybe it was me who was dead and I was in a reincarnation cycle. I have to keep coming back until I get the father I should have.