But naked, all I see is the ugly bits, so I just dont go there.I know I shouldnt complain - I've seen some people who have it a lotrougher than me in ...he looks department - burn victims, people withhorrible diseases, people with terrible birth defects.Me, I just look like the guy I used to pretend I was.When you're trans, holidays can really suck, you know? Christmas becomesa reminder of the fact your family thinks you're going to hell, or Easterreminds you of all the pretty spring dresses. I was grateful nonetheless; facing a barrage of unfamiliar faces suddenly seemed daunting in the extreme.The council chamber was in relative darkness. Small glowing globes hung in mid-air, suspended from gossamer thin threads. They cast shadows in all directions, affording the interior an eerie aspect. An ornate wooden table graced the centre of the room, around which a number of robed figures sat quietly, their expressions neutral.A middle-aged man dressed in a scarlet robe indicated a pair of. Connie explained to me how she was nervous but that she needed to be punished for the bad she had done when she was younger, she had let men touch her when she was far too young to allow this, she told me how had sex many times with men old enough to be her grandfather. It seemed that Connie was addicted to sex, often with unsuitable partners and now she realised that she needed to be punished for her past. We met up today for our first time, as time was tight and the only time she could get. I walked up close and reached past to turn off the water, shivering as our bodies touched.Putting one arm around her waist and taking her hand I guided Laura to the end of the bath and told her to get out. I had always admired Laura, she had been one to keep in shape, running several times a week, doing pilates and a lot of cycling. It looked to me that this was one thing he hadn’t stopped, of course, he would want a beautiful plaything. She was obviously in a daze, unsurprisingly, after.