Madeleine spent much of her time now spying on Tsanja with her mirror.Tsanja had stopped coming to visit. It was obvious that Madeleine and Penn now h...ld her in low regard, as had her mother for years now. It was very painful for her, and she had a lonely existence.She continued with the church rituals, and tried to keep in place the deceptions which she hoped still kept Gynt from the prying eyes of the Church scryers. In her fallen state, she knew that her efforts would do little good.Tsanja. I nodded my head no. I had thought of this and Chester took some compassion and just did what I wanted without me having to worry about it for all the days until it happened."This will help with the pain," and she put a spoon with something in it to my mouth. It soaked into the rag and I went slowly back to sleep.I don't know when I woke again but it was light. Sissy was there now holding my hand."Hello Willy," she said.I nodded to her and smiled."Are you mad at Chester for doing that?"I nodded. Later in the night when she was lying down I went by her and we were talking general and she asked me if I liked what I felt and I said yes, she told me “good because it won’t happen again”. Saddened that I hadn’t gotten to feel them directly I asked her why and she just kept quiet.The next day we were playing truth or dare and I chose truth and she asked me a random question, she chose truth and I asked her if she enjoyed it when I held her boobs. To my surprise, she said she did. That’s when. Before she leaving to Saudi,I used to masturbate thinking of her when I was in high school days.Later she left to Saudi and I grew up and she returned after some time.She was 28 by that time and I was 23.One day everyone in my house went outside for a function in my village.The boys went on vacation and I was alone in the house by the time the maid came home.My mom before her departure asked her to finish the work in the house and then go upstairs as they were going out.She obeyed it and came.