It was a long trip from the airport and I thought that Charles had to work early in the morning so I wasn't too disappointed when he went to bed early... I was on East Coast time so I stayed up talking with Sis.I asked what she meant about helping me with my shyness. She got kind of philosophical and told me why being a woman was so complicated because of sex. This was territory we had never talked about before because sex was so embarrassing for me and sexuality was a taboo topic in our house. Did you ever do it with another man?Maybe fool around when you were a boy with other boys? I know it happensall the time. Maybe at prep school, in the dorms? Just a little innocentfooling around, practicing kissing? Maybe looking at pictures of nudewomen and jacking off together, did you ever do that? And watch yourfriend jack off, rubbing his erection, staring at the photo of a large-breasted model? I bet you watched him stroke his cock, licking yourlips, didn't you? Tell me John, I want to. ." Turning off the stove and making a run to her room she added: "don't come near to the room or the bathroom" What" I don't know if she heard it or not she shut the bathroom door, I didn't hear the lock click and next thing I heard as she fell on the floor.I made a run to the bathroom, I know it was open so stopped where only voices can be heard, I heard she threw her pants and top on the door and she sat to the toilet seat and pulled the curtain. I said "anything wrong, just tell me, I'm. But she politely declined my offer to look for another church together.The truth was that Tricia had found someone else. She had decided to join a local band, playing local gigs. Being a talented vocalist, she had exchanged the church choir for a rock band. And she soon exchanged her husband of eight years for the lead guitarist in the rock band.Brother Larry seemed incapable of comprehending the painful loss and sense of utter rejection that I was experiencing. I needed comfort and compassion;.