I smoked cigarettes now. I think that conveyed something about who I was.I know most people hate that habit; I was perfectly happy not being asmoker ...efore the transformation. I started just because, I guess. Iknow it relaxed me. But, there came one morning when I first felt itsgentle craving. Somehow that feeling seemed to intermingle with all thenew sensations I was experiencing. I'm very aware of that need now, thatdesire, and how my cigarettes can quell that feeling.Maybe smoking. * * *Kelly woke the next morning when rays of light streamed through thewindow and hit her eyes. She blinked in confusion at the strangesurroundings, then looked over at Brendan sleeping next to her. Hermemory flooded back and a slow, satisfied smile spread across her face.Kel, you were such a slut last night. And you enjoyed every minute ofit.She lay there silently for a moment, replaying last nights events in hermind, until she could not help but remember another night more than fouryears ago. [her] values and judgment are going to be tested in ways... [she]couldnever predict...[and] be confronted with forces and people whoare...black as night,...trying to turn...[her] to their own evilends." (from "Bikini Beach: In the Beginning") In the past, she's deferred to her grandmother's decisions, but she'sbegun questioning decisions (transformations0 that she disagrees withand setting up a Bikini Beach Support Group (for transformees stuckas women and having trouble adjusting to the. "This isn't real," he thought. "It's not happening and in a moment I'll wake up." Well?" she said."Pinch me to see if I'm dreaming," he joked.She gave his ear a nasty pinch. He yelped and rubbed his ear furiously. She giggled, hands over her face. Then she began to laugh. In seconds, tears were running down her cheeks and she fell to her knees holding her sides."Oh, God, Bill, I wish I had a video of this. Your face is priceless. Yes, this is real. Yes, I want an affair with you." Her.