" It will be too late for me then, Joyce. Whoever I am when this integration thing is complete will be who I'm stuck with forever. I don't want to be ...ike him. I won't be like him. I know him now, and he scares me. I hate that he's a part of me, but I won't let him ever become all of me."We were both crying by the time the phone call was over. The doctor looked like she was feeling pretty sad as well. I went back to my room.Three days later, I woke up in a hypnotized state again. At first I was. “I wasn’t sure what sort of information would be out there when I set this up,” I admitted. “In order to make sure that Liz wasn’t going to get ambushed I worked directly with the station manager and the owner to determine the format. This is a pretty big deal. Liz doesn’t do television and certainly not local television. They would have agreed if I wanted their ‘on-air’ personality to do the interview naked while astride a donkey. The producer just got another lesson in the fact that money. After I finished the other furniture I asked Debby if she wanted the nightstands for the bedroom she said yes she was ready for them. I walked into the bedroom and nearly dropped the nightstand on my foot my ex was laying on the bed with the same white teddy minus the bottom that she wore the night of our honeymoon it was however much tighter than when she had worn it first I guess she had kept it in the hope chest all those years. Debby was laying on the bed with her legs spread wide and she. I’d have to say it was the best birthday present my girlfriends could have given me. While I was busy with one girlfriend, the others were busy with each other.The Semi-State Cross Country meet was held at IPFW Saturday—one of my favorite running venues. It’s just a fifteen-minute bus ride from school and took longer to load and unload our athletic bus than to drive to The Plex. The boys’ team did well, placing third, even though our top runner only came in fifteenth. A lot of schools only had.