When I let Oscar fuck me they get so turned on that that they immediately let the dog they have chosen fuck them right there. We take a moving picture...of them getting fucked and file it with their paperwork in case they try to black mail us. I had one women from Sweden give us an extra thousand bucks if I would let her fuck four of the dogs one after another. I took her out to one of the pins and brought in four dogs including Oscar. I brought out a bench and had her lay across it. I started to. I can't fight it. And I'll do anything to avoid it. But I can't keep going like this, my mom's word burrowing deeper into my brain, sowing these pessimistic seeds of doubt. And Carly notices my long looks at her, she senses that I'm almost constantly on the verge of saying something to her. But I can't.I want to, but I can't.Even as we head to bed, I'm fighting myself. Should I? Shouldn't I? Even as I slip under my blanket, even though I'm wide awake, fidgeting restlessly.I toy with a loose. I had the best nights sleep of my life.I awoke before the others in the morning. I lay there for a momentwith the enjoyment of being wrapped up by these two soft and warmpreteen beauties.I got up and went into the bathroom to take a shower. Not having mystuff there, I used their soap and shampoo, coming out smelling like alittle girl.I dried off walked back into the room naked. I love walking aroundnaked in the morning. I gazed upon the two young girls curled up toeach other sound asleep. . 10 minutes later Dora and her husband left, and for the first 5 minutes I felt uncomfortable being the only female with 5 lads here in this flat, feeling a little out of place, I looked around the room and could see the 5 lads, the same 5 from the beginning of the night, all were young, they all looked so young, I think they were 18,19 and 20 year olds and all were having a good laugh.I noticed one lad smoking and soon realised that it was not normal tobacco as I could tell by the smell, 3 or 4.