The dope man was here. FUCK! It was pretty normal for him to come over, drop off our pot, smoke some of his stash with us, and leave. Neither one of u... wanted that to happen tonight. She jumped up off the couch, ran downstairs, and met him at the door, giving him some bull shit story about us having to leave to go to a party. She got rid of him in less than 5 minutes. When she came back upstairs, she took me by the hand and led me to my bedroom. She pulled off her shirt and dropped her shorts. She figured it had been the same from his side of the equation.She didn't understand why this was difficult. They had discussed difficult subjects before. She had been the one to explain sex to Andy in the first place. She had found the dirty sock he'd used for clean up when he first started to jerk off. He had washed her underwear for the past five years so he knew she was no stranger to arousal.She decided that those things were on the periphery. There had always been an unspoken line that. She never stops thinking of how she acts and she rarely ever puts her guard down. I guess I never have appreciated all of her qualities, she’s always so kind and considerate to people, however that’s why staying in a house full of 5 other girls made things tough when we wanted to get intimate. She didn’t like being the type of couple that were always cuddling, or always kissing because she didn’t want to make other people in the house feel awkward, however when we were in private or just in. Hecrouched in on himself, trying to find that spark of anger and defiancethat had kept him going for so long. Allowed him to keep separate fromthat name, and these dresses, no matter how deep he went into thedisguise.It was useless. The spark had gone out. All that remained was a tinyreserve of stubbornness, not a spark or a flame but a stagnant pool thatwould soon be drained away. He would become Cinder Elli, for good, athis stepmother's next convenience - he knew that, now. It wouldn't evenbe.