Not a one of us is replaceable.”People picked up rifles and followed me across the street. Doris was first and said, “I’ve fired shotguns and .2... rifles but these are different. Please show me how to load it. I demonstrated how to load a clip and where the safety was located. I then pulled the clip and handed the rifle and clip to Doris. I purposely gave her the clip backwards. She turned it around and pushed it home, released the safety and took aim. She murmured, “Car window.” She aimed and. I felt bad for causing those tears, but knew that I was going to be causing some more shortly.She threw her arms around me as I got close, and started to sob against my shoulder."I'm so sorry, Nick. I didn't think you would be upset. It was stupid of me and I shouldn't have done it. Please, forgive me!' she pleaded with me.I placed my hands on her shoulders and gently pushed her away."No, Shanna," I told her softly, "you did the right thing." She looked up at me with hope in her eyes, and I. ‘Is that some kind of sick joke, El?’ ‘You think I did it?’ ‘Well who else knew about your letter?’ ‘Jacob’s the only one that—,’ ‘And this is his way of saying he still doesn’t like me?’ ‘No, Will, he does, I know he does.’ ‘Well then who the fuck wrote that?’ he almost screamed, unbelieving. ‘I don’t know it’s not that big of a…’ she trailed off, biting her tongue. It was a big deal. ‘Big of a deal? You’re right. It’s only that concept and that idea that made me run in the first place.. What really shocked me was when she started to nonchalantly slip out of her clothes and place them into the washer as well. There she stood in the laundry room wearing only her five inch suede spike high heels, what a site it was. What I really found exciting about her was that for a woman of her mature age she was always wearing spike high heels around the house. She only took them off it seemed to me to garden or do outside work, but inside she always had them on. I always found it hard not.