.I had no idea she felt this way. And the biggestproblem of all, she was right!I stood there speechless as a "deer in the headlights" expressioncrosse... my face. "Lori, I'm SO sorry! I honestly thought you werehappy." As she dried her tears, she softly told me she was fine.She just hasn't felt like her life had much meaning or purpose recently.Being "The Assistant" wasn't doing much for her self esteem. I feltterrible and offered what I could."Next show, I'd like to trade places with you" I. I can't do thatto you." Arthur said, "Why did you do that to me?" Holly said, "There is no easy way for me to say this. I am alesbian. I don't think I could take a man sticking his penis in me.Dear, I am so sorry. I figured if I made you into a pseudo-girlthat it would answer everything. But I have fallen in love with youand I can't take your manhood away from you for the rest of yourlife. I am so very, very sorry. Can you forgive me?" Arthur sat for a moment and considered what he had just. It just didn't register for me. I had been totally happy with a fairly consistent stream of women through high school and college so far. Other forms of release had just not come up. At this point I was starting to think, "Why not?" No one beside Amy and the 'yet-to-be-named-player' would know. Could I live with myself after? Probably. Would I still have Amy? Yes. Would I throw up or something very uncool? Unlikely. Could I even get hard? Hmmm. Getting and staying hard was never an issue, but I. We dressed and left, and as I stood and watched him drive away, I knew that something was going to change.I arrived home, and after explaining that I had been covered in beer after a fight had broke out, I quickly jumped in the shower. My husband came upstairs to ask if I was ok, I shrugged and said every thing was fine. I was a little shocked when I felt a hand on my back, then his body sliding up behind me, naked and warm. What was he doing, he didn't do things like this, it just wasn't in.