I feel rested for some strange reason.Perhaps it is melancholy.Perhaps it is nerves.I do know the darkness is there. I can see it. I can feel it. But ...t does not scare me. I may not be out of the woods but I have a bright torch and a spare (backup!) at the ready.I always do the backup thing. In all facets of my life. You name it and I have a backup or spare in place.I may have also forgotten to mention that along with my therapist, I did tell my sister all about my revalations. I even told her. Watching Deena and Haley interacting with the community toddlers reminded me of the conversation we had last week. Haley holding Nikki’s little one then switching to Cindy’s half-brother, that tells me something.I got a chance to actually talk with Dan Granger about the surgery.“Technicolor testicles, bud. Ice packs, jock strap, being treated extra specially good because I was told to refrain from sex for a couple of weeks. But look at ‘er,” he said, nodding towards Nikki and his son. “Damned. He felt somewhere between beingdrunk and having a hangover. Jonah looked around and realized that he mustbe in a bedroom of the Inn. Jonah vaguely remembered the women from the night before. The two Amazonsin the corner of the bar had made him curious enough to discuss them brieflywith Antonio. Jonah admitted to having a strange attraction for the blondeAmazon, but was more enamored with a young dancing girl at the Inn. She wasabout his own age and very pretty. He had watched her and. I walkednaked, back into the bedroom to my dresser to pick out some clothes. Igrabbed a pair of silk panties and white pants. I had a very difficulttime getting my underwear situated. I had to lie down on the bed to putmy pants on as well. I grabbed a bra from the drawer and found out thatsize E really does exist. At least I am well endowed, I thought. I putthe bra straps over each shoulder than realized how far out of my leagueI really was. I had no idea how to do this. I pulled the bra.