I'm not sure whether that would have been better or worse, just that I can see the other side of how I acted. I mean Lily and Katy have both been viol...ted as well and seem to accept that as part of being female ... I don't think it should be that way but I've begun interviewing other women who've been forced. There aren't very many left on board the Dawn Princess but still they seem to have a sort of fatalistic approach to it. Rape happens. If the man doesn't kill you then you survive. If you. A moment later when I staggered a bit under Mindy's ministrations, Kay grabbed my left arm and draped it over her shoulder, inviting me to let her hold me up. Then she started caressing my left breast. She held my arm with her right hand so I didn't slip off her shoulders.Mindy certainly knew her way around down there and she treated me to a demonstration of her skills. Maybe she was trying to convince me to move the date for that sleepover to real-soon-now. "Slow down," I whispered, "let's not. At the beginning I never thought about checking the wash basket for dirty knickers, I preferred the freshly laundered ones. Her cotton work knickers were on one side of the drawer and her sexy ones on the other. Hers bras and stockings in another. I learned about bra sizes and panty sizes, and how she had a different size bra for when she was on her period because her nipples were really sore when she was menstrating. She was the only girl I've known, who loved to fuck when she was on her. I had known I’d be saying goodbye to her that morning, but this felt different. I steeled myself and put my brave front on.Brita and I then walked back to the kitchen where the others sat over coffee. Nils was sitting there with them along with Tom. I saw Brita lock eyes with Nils and give a small nod. Brita went and stood by Nils, and then made her little announcement to everyone. An embarrassed hush fell on the room, and the other girls looked at me to see my reaction. I nodded and tried to.