Suddenly, I knew what it felt like to suffocate. I heard my breath whoosh from my lungs as a foot planted itself between my shoulder blades and pushed... I could feel the heel of his boot dig into my skin, and a small rivulet of what I assumed was blood began to flow along my spine.I grit my teeth and sagged under the weight of the man standing above me. Self-preservation took over, I guess, and I decided they'd be done with me faster if I stopped fighting. No use pissing them off any further. I. I don’t remember much of what happened during the day, but I remember us lying in the hay stall at night. Of course, we were talking about sex, girls, our dicks, jerking off… all of that. They all were straight and I considered myself to be straight as well at the time. I actually had had a girlfriend at the time named Jessica and she was mixed, half white, half black. But we hadn’t done “it” yet, because she was going on forever, wanting to wait for the right time.Felix was kind of the. .. but after the birth, things tapered off fast. We were both tired from taking care of the baby. She mistook my exhaustion for disinterest, and got even more reluctant to let me near her. I was too tired to fight about it, and she figured I didn't care. It was all downhill from there... Anyway, everything in my life had quieted down til last week. I pulled into a bordertown truckstop in the upper-midwest, with a pretty popular strip club adjacent to three or four cheap motels. This wasn't my. Normally I had a photographic memory for faces and details and for some reason I could not keep the arseholes face in my mind. I had to keep looking at the photo and even then look back at it to remind myself ten minutes later.It was as black as the inside my arse and I could barely make out his house I don't know what would be expected to come from an overnight stakeout other than to break my concentration and make me fuck up. I'll show them. "Wake up you dumb cunt, don't give them an excuse!".