... the guys don't even speak to me." Well Im sure I have something you can borrow..... come on lets go look in my closet. Here.... try these on.... I...threw a few pieces on the bed. While I went through a few other things Im thinkin this party is gonna jump off. I turn around and oh my..... my eyes couldn't help but look at her body. It was beautiful. I said damn girl where did all that body come from????? Tryin not to sound like a dude...lol. She's like whaaaat??? I don't know what you talkin. I experienced a sudden emptiness as her fingers eased out of my body. As if detached from these events I analysed the whole experience for a moment. It was true what she had said; she hadn't actually caused me physical pain, the lubrication had seen to that. No ? it was just a horrible feeling of discomfort, and of being unused to having something so deep within my body, an..and this violation in the most intimate of ways. I realised then that I had mentally thought of it as MY body and. Poor James, Jen thought. He was clearly nothing like his father. James was sweet, sexy and kind. With that thought Jen watched as he suddenly kicked his lawn mower with such force that the plastic guard on it obliterated and shards of orange plastic showered the lawn. Well, nearly nothing like his father, she thought, though clearly they both had similar tempers.Suddenly James looked up, straight at Jen, who was still looking directly at him. Startled, she realised he could see her and leapt. When it ended, he let me go and got up.“Should I do you?” I asked.He looked at me in surprise, as if no one had offered him that before. Maybe his lover used him and didn’t give anything back.“No. Not right now,” he said quietly, sounding almost embarrassed.I went home after that, wondering why Eric would refuse the pleasure he had given me.A week passed without seeing Eric. He had not been in school since the incident with Luke. Then, one morning, I found a note slipped into my locker. It was.