I was but a girl of twelve, barely starting on her journey of change in both mind and body, menstruation and hormonal cocktails, had pervaded my body ...arely two months now, but already I was aware of the changes in my attitude towards the physical side of my own body, my breasts bursting forth in a tightening across my chest, small protuberances of soft puffy flesh and hard nipples, and my cunny, now wet with the visual stimulation before my eyes as black men pushed the white girls legs open. Remember, a sissy seeks to become the embodiment of what their dream woman would be. As such, their interest in pleasing men is distinct from that of homosexual men. Their interest in men comes from seeking validation that they have achieved their sissy goal: being feminine enough to interest “straight” men. They aren’t into the men themselves as much as the men are sex objects that a sissy uses to confirm her own sissyness. Sissies are submissive. You can be a crossdresser who makes an effort. Jamal came over and turned up the TV to get the music louder. He told me to show him my dance moves. So while watching the videos and listening to the music we started dancing. He was still giving me drinks too but they were mixed now and not straight shots. I was wearing a T-shirt, bra, panties, and my PJ pants. The pants were thin so when Jamal pulled me closer to do some bumping and grinding, I could feel everything. I had been to a couple school dances, but we werent allowed to dance like. "We mentioned last night not to look onthis as a punishment and as a learning opportunity, and given what wejust chatted about, I'm hoping you will take the opportunity to the womanyou feel is your true self." Thank you, Elizabeth," Olive said, "I in fact, have seen this to be apunishment - looking back on my life it is. I've been thinking about howto get out of this predicament I have created for myself, and you arecorrect - I should look at this as a chance to learn." Elizabeth justsmiled at.