And also my only anal.We were (and still are friends) and there had always been some sexual tension. MSNs started to get dirty, he told me that he lik...d to be in charge in bed and I told him that I was absolutely the opposite and for the first time since we'd known one another, we were both single.We lived in different parts of the country. One thing led to another and I had found myself on a train and we spent the weekend fucking. Bliss. Fucking and friendship. We knew nothing more should ever. The bad news was that I didn’t like what I knew. Back to day labor and shacking up wherever I could. Fuck! I didn’t even have a ticket to the hallway house this time around. I kinda coulda used that one, but it was what it was.A local food store owner, he was clearly the owner, was sweeping the dirt out of his shop. I went up to him.“Need any help, even part time,” I said. He could see I was indigent. He looked around. You willing to get paid under the table.“Yes,” I said, “thrilled actually.”. Like I said, these might sound like isolated events, put them together and they paint a whole different picture. Simply put, we’re stronger than you. In the all-White sport of NASCAR racing, a Black man recently became the World Champion. Not the regional champion. Not the national champion. The world champion. A Black man beat all the White Chess Grand Masters at their own game. An all-Black cheerleading team from the South took the gold crown at the national cheerleading championships. A. We will play out each of his ideas methodically and as intensely as he wants that day. I spend the time getting him excited and getting him off. He spends it enjoying orgasms and letting his imagination dictate our actions. We will.have an understanding that I do the pleasuring and he is the one who gets to be pleasured. Details of what we do next, how he wants me to behave, what attitude I will have and when and how it should change. The games we play, how and when he wants to touch me,.