And controlling. Very controlling. So, without knowing everything that I have in storefor you, you still want to do it?" I nodded. "And you underst...nd thatif you go back, it's all over." Again I nodded. "Then you haveaccepted. Now take off all your clothes, put them neatly on that chair,and meet me in the bathroom."As I began to unbutton my shirt she laughed softly, then left the room. With each piece of clothing I removed, my emotions got more powerful.It felt like I had entered some. Pilar, Vanessa, and I were shucking the last of this season’s corn. We’d grill it, along with fresh salmon, up on the roof later on. Toss some asparagus on too.Pilar, understanding at some molecular level, that conversational bombshells are much more effective when casually dropped, said, “Sucking isn’t the only way Papi can ... give himself pleasure.”Vanessa and I looked at each other. Now what?Pilar, still no exclamation points in her voice, elaborated, “There’s oral of course.” She smiled. .." Gerald began to say, but she stopped him. "You weren't there, neither was he. He took off the moment I was born. Never to be heard from again." Chelsea wiped the tears away. "My mother died of cancer before I was five. My grandfather raised me until he passed away six years ago."Gerald looked at her. She pulled her knees close to her body. "He taught me everything there is about football," she smiled again. "You know what the biggest sin a human can do in their lifetime?"Gerald shook. There’s more. I wouldn’t want to love you like I love Mary Beth. I can tell I’m falling for you. I mean, really thinking you could be the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with. I know that sounds awful rushed. We’ve only known each other for a couple months. But there’s something special about you. And...” I cut myself off. How could I tell her that my other self, Kyle, was falling in love with her other self, Kat? Kat probably wasn’t even her other self, any more than Laramie was Mary.