"Stay the night Alexia." he said, out of breath. I almost forgot it was his first time, he was so amazing. I still knew I had to go if I didn't want...to get in trouble. I slipped out from under him and grabbed my clothes and stated putting them on, one by one. "I'll walk you." he said. I thought he had passed out already, but there he was, fully clothed and wanting to take my hand. I let him kiss me goodnight when we reached my door, but I promised myself that I wouldn't get attached this. She’s had to go away on business and asked me if I would mind having him for a week.’ ‘Oh yes, I remember him, but I didn’t recognise him. Gosh, how he’s grown. How old is he now?’ ‘He’s 18 and as you say he has really grown … and in more ways than you could ever imagine.’ ‘Oh … what do you mean?’ ‘I’ve been dying to tell somebody Pat, so if I tell you, will you please promise me you will keep it to yourself.’ ‘Yes, of course … it sounds very intriguing … tell me more.’ ‘Well I know you will. I loved the way it turned out. We went for a walk then. Then we moved onto her flat after hectic shopping and an amazing candlelight dinner.She unlocked the flat as I leaned on the door looked onto her lips. She gave me a naughty smile. As soon as we got into the flat, she started to kiss me. Our kiss was passionate and our tongue rolled. In that power of a kiss, I started to remove her top and then unbuckled her pants.She was even more feisty and removed my dresses one by one. We then moved on. I never seen him after that, and somehow i regret not looking for him. Knowing what I'm giving up being gay sometimes makes me rethink my life. A wife and kids is something i would love. But i love men and i can't seem to get over them. " umm hello? Sir your bus is here" someone said. I turn and see a man standing under the bus stop smoking."I'm not waiting for the bus so you can go ahead" I'm not waiting for the bus either" then why are you under the bus stop?" I'm enjoying the weather" he.