'All this was sent along with some returned gentle touches down her spine that were triggering reactions inducing anything but efficient work flow. 'O... God Dear, please give me a break here. I'll never get anything done this morning if you keep that up, ' Alice sent while squirming in her chair.The delicious touches running down her spine then eased up as she heard her love's voice bloom in her head once again, 'Have I told you how much I love you today?''Why no, I don't believe you have, ' she. We were going out to dinner that night, he showed up at my place with the bag of pills. The way things turned out, I was glad to have the next day off, I needed the rest! Near the end of the meal he set out two 40 mg pills on a napkin. He was going to take them right before we left; that way he’d be ready to go about the time we arrived at my place. We’d gone to our favorite little place; this was the time that our waitress saw the pills, winked at me and said, “It looks like someone’s gonna. This was going to be too difficult, I thought, to keep up. I’d have to talk to Lena about it and then to Gianna. I thought then that we needed to get this out into the open, at least among family and friends. ‘I like the nuts and bolts, figuratively speaking. Putting computers to work, improving them. That’s where my skill lies, not in organising. Oh I can do that but it’s a new world.’ ‘Look,’ I said, ‘why don’t we discuss this with Nardo when we get back. I can take some of the heat off you. ..NO!"I looked into Mom's eyes and I could see she was frightened and crying.She pulled me to her and held me tighter than ever before. It felt goodand Mom smelled so nice. It had a calming effect on me. For the firsttime in a long time I felt safe. I squeezed Mom back and said,"I love you Mom. But I am afraid, Mom. I am afraid the doctors are goingto change me back to being a boy. No more orientation, Mom, please Mom.Don't let them Mom please... don't let them!"Then I started to cry again..