‘Baby, shhh, it will get better. I know it hurts now, but in time it will stop hurting so much,’ she said. I stood up, breaking the hug and turned...to face her. ‘I can’t do this Lil, I cannot call another relative, another family member, and tell them about the funeral and hear their sympathetic voice over the phone. I know it’s selfish but I just can’t do it.’ She grabbed me and pulled me to her. ‘Baby, I hate seeing you so upset, I wish there was something I could do to take away this pain,. We have already made you look and sound like ourdaughter, now we will train you to act like her. Our slightly boy-crazy,girly-girl daughter. It will take time, but we have plenty of that. Soonyou'll be cheerleading, going out with boys,shopping for girly things,you love that or rather she did, so will you. I'm Helen but you willcall me Mummy or Mum." Helen held up a mirror so that the new *Amber*could see her new face and body.I could barely understand what this person thought she was saying. . As we'd feared after the Government kidnapped and killed Mark, and the CIA-led attack on our Peoria Road home, the Government's ongoing illegal attacks against our family could easily have killed several innocent people if we'd been living close to any neighbors. Without our living in a home equipped with a radar and emergency slides to underground safe rooms, Fely and I would be dead now, and probably everyone else in the house too if we'd still been in Peoria Road because the UAV would have. We each took turns trying to fit as much into our mouths as we could with out gagging. Gail declared that depth isn't the determining factor in a great blow job. It is probably a good thing, because she gagged very easily. Kathy could take a little more, but when Gail tried to tell me to relax my throat muscles, I started to get the hang of it, and could take quite a bit down my throat before I started to choke.Then Gail jumped up again, and said to hold on a minute.After a few minutes, she.