Her makeup was simple, her dress was simple, but at that moment Barbara looked to me like the ultimate vision of femininity.I couldn’t move, couldn�...�t think. I stood there dumbly.“You coming up or what?”It still took a couple seconds to register that Ruchi was waiting for me to get upstairs so she could go down. My feet felt as if I was wearing lead boots when I finally began to ascend the few remaining stairs. At last I got to the landing. I had ogled her unblinkingly. Reaching the landing,. So beautifulBhabhi: you are making me so happy dearMe: just came near your lipsBhabhi: Ummmmaaahhhh ummmaaaaahhhhhMe: Umaaaaahhhhh long kissBhabhi: Dear I love you so muchMe: Me too dear. Now please give your tongueBhabhi: Ya take itMe: Slowly sucking it. Wow so tasty and softBhabhi: Hmmmm ummmmmmMe: Tasting your salivaBhabhi: Yours is so tastyMe: Biting it slowlyBhabhi: ahhhhhh you are making me mad yaarMe: Now kissing your neck.. Ummmaaaahh ammmmm.. so tastyBhabhi: Ahhhhh waaaaaMe:. You have had ppl try to tear you down, break you, remake you into their idea of beauty, but you just laugh and keep on moving. They don't get that you know who you are. How you made yourself. So there eyes caress you with envy, lust, hate as you walk past the check-in desk, past the wanna-bes, the bible thumpers, the fucking unhappy couples, past the ppl who just can't be fucking true to themselves, to stop infront of the elevator. You find yourself smiling at yourself in the reflection of the. I hadway more body hair than I cared for. I'm no gorilla who has to shavehis back, but my hair was dark. If it was blonde, I could live with it.As it was, I would need to shave everywhere if I really wanted to passas a woman.There was one thing that required more practice than all of the others.I learned how to apply makeup. My first attempts came out looking likea child attacked me with a crayon. Over time, with perseverance, I wasable to duplicate many of the looks I observed. I was still.