I realised I am at the Farmers Inn, I had driven there on autopilot, memories of that fateful Friday night, are inter-spaced with excuses for justifyi...g what I was about to do. Excuses, not reasons I know. Cheating is wrong, I had always been firm on that, but the carrot had been dangled in front of me. That big juicy carrot.Lust and shame inflamed me as I walked up to the hotel room. I paused outside, my thoughts bouncing around in my head, trying again and again to rationalise, justify and. I just don’t know how much I trust him. One minute I could picture myself spending the rest of my life with him and the next, I am scared to death of him. I need time and space. And he has a problem giving me that.’ Why was I talking to Ariela about our relationship? I did not know her, but I felt very at ease with her. ‘Senõr Alex wants to make you happy. I know he has a different lifestyle, but he is a very caring and trustworthy man. Give him the benefit of the doubt. You will be happy that. At the same time, there is a sugar shortage, a corn shortage, hell, an overall food shortage. There is also a shortage of cotton, one reason that clothing is so expensive. Those crops all grow well in Louisiana. I want the girls to find a place or places where we can buy huge tracts of fertile farmland. I want to plant sweet potatoes, rice, corn, wheat, sugar cane, and cotton. After we have those going, I’ll consider chickens, dairy cows, and hogs. We can probably capture any feral brood sows. I was wearing a very modest dress. I wasn't showing any cleavage and the hem of my skirt fell just above my knee. He didn't say anything that was inappropriate. But the way that he looked at me was disturbing. And he made no effort to disguise his appreciation of the way I looked.I was considering reporting him when I left his office. I didn't, though. I decided that making him mad wasn't the smartest thing for me to do.After he went over all of the many, many rules and regulations with which I.