I arrived home to find David was gone for a two week stay in Los Angeles. At least he would be warm out there. I rang Emily from downstairs to come up... We spent lots of time together. Not always did we make love. Several nights we slept together in each others arms just cuddling and a little light kissing. Other times we'd just sit and talk, telling our life stories. Of course I left out Jack Holiday because it was beyond belief. I was very shocked when David believed me as I poured my soul out. I took a look around as we stopped to break camp for the evening. Once again we were in a little meadow, surrounded by trees. If it weren’t for the circumstances it would be a beautiful place. I didn’t really want to sleep. I knew if I did I would dream of my father’s death once again. The monsters that surrounded me had toyed with him before finally ending his life. I was thrown of the horse I had been travelling on and forced to sit on the ground. I watched as the started a fire and got out. Finally, she confessed, "To answer yourquestion, that is a firm NO! I have looked but have not touched."I still haven't committed fully to the female sexual orientation, I canfind a man handsome, just not sexually attractive. My sexual inclinationsare still toward women. If I developed a strong relationship with a guy,I might be able to do the wifely things required. But it is not somethingI would look forward too."Suddenly, Ariel was sorry she had ever broached the subject."Mom, this is. As I made my way back to the parking lot I noticed a car park next to mine. Once again my heart raced in anticipation. I could have reached into my purse to check the time on my cell phone but decided that it would make me look too nervous, so I forced myself to breathe in slowly and wait to see what would happen. A tall figure emerged from the car and looked around for a moment before he started on his way… in my direction. I felt myself grow faint with each step that drew him.