."A few minutes later, Matt leaves the bar, where he boughteveryone drinks on the $300 he had, and many for himself atthe same time. He walks in the m...ddle of the road, drunk ascan be, and doesn't hear the car coming.Matt is about to turn to get out of the road when the car,that almost hit Sara, hits him dead on. He doesn't feelanything as his legs go underneath the car while the restof him hits the hood and windshield. His body rolls overthe top of the car, and he lands face first on. By then Katie had completely given up her fight and lay motionless, her breasts heaving upon her chest with each excited breath. I wanted to stop the movie. I wanted to smash the monitor. I felt violated and tortured yet I continued to watch. She looked so happy propped up on her elbows early in the scene, so happy playing with Phil. We hadn’t been that playful in years. Somehow, it made me feel dejected, embarrassed, and guilty. My body however, was on fire with rage. Katie brought her hands. Sonya was a slight woman with short dark hair and with almost nothing to match Caitlin's rather more splendid bosom. She dressed in jeans and tee-shirts—but, like almost everyone Caitlin had met in marketing, was eager to flaunt the designer labels of her otherwise undistinguished clothes. The thin nose on her small face was brilliantly complemented by a perfect set of teeth and wide green eyes. It didn't comfort Caitlin one bit to admit that Sonya was a very pretty woman. And, although no one. I was a fascinated. I donot know what the years did with that picture. I kept it for thelongest time. I stared at it every night for months.To be honest, I had heard of transgender people even then. I didn'tlive under a rock. But I had never seen one. Pornography was harder tofind in those days, and the internet sites hadn't taken over. CaitlynJenner was a decathlon champion named Bruce. Laverne Cox was a guynamed Roderick. Oh, Christine Jorgensen was famous, and Candy Darlingwas in a Lou Reed.