“I’m not okay. But I do want to know one thing. What’s going on? Why are we all tied together?”The little kisses stopped and there was silence...for a second. Then Tara and Liz both said, “That’s two things,” at exactly the same time. That made all of us laugh, even me. Have you ever laughed when you were crying? Tears and stuff spray everywhere. It gets really messy.“We have things to tell you – good things.” That was Tara speaking. “But can we do it out in the kitchen?”“This needs to be more. And I told you I wasn't going to make an effort for Jay.." I didn't ask you to wear a dress." Esme recognised the tone of voice,she was in trouble. "Besides, who said it was for Jay?" she said, witha smile. "But you did say you'd make an effort for Jason."Esme sighed. She examined the t-shirt. She bought it after going to oneof their after show DJ sets at the Star and Garter, back when she wasan undergrad in Manchester. There were many faded stains. Each acampaign medal for a night out in her. I bought them from a thrift store. Into the bottom of the bowl I poured the contents of a chemical sweetener. Next I added half a banana cut into small chunks, after that I added half a bowl of cardboard tasting bran flakes. Then I filled the bowl with 2% milk and stirred it well. I let it sit while I recovered my day old coffee from the microwave.So much time passed while I did that chore, that I was jealous when Janet come into the kitchen with her cinnamon bun. She washed it down with orange. Might have been the ibuprofen kicking in ... Nice normal blow n go to start my day! NORMAL?? Shit!"Heard you did Thrash last night - nasty fucker there! This little bitch was sayin ya filled her full of cum! Thash is a bit nuts you know?"I laughed "A bit? ya say! I never hurt so much in my life AND that little cunt tied my balls and used them like drums. Hurt hurt hurt! It was good!" Maybe you a little nuts..." Anything up today?" I was wondering if I had plans"No, this snow is keeping things.