I put antibiotic salve over everything that bled, and then bandaged myself up, using gauze for the bigger wounds.I hadn't brought any clean clothes in...with me. "Would someone go get my pajamas, please," I called. Mom shoved my pajamas through the crack. I pulled the bottoms on."Let me take a look at you before you finish getting dressed." I opened up the door, and she inspected me. "Pull up the legs." She shook her head. "I heard you beat the hell out of the boys who did this." Yes." Good. The. Call them. Talk to them. You’ll find out exactly how good I was at managing my life. I know you won’t do that for the same reason you attacked Becky’s parents, Jennifer’s parents, and Melanie’s parents. You can’t stand the fact that you can’t control me.”“That’s because you are out of control, young man!”“Mom, call Doctor Mercer and ask her if I’m out of control. She knows everything, and I mean everything, I did before I stopped seeing her. I’ll give her permission to tell you everything. If. I poured a shot of vodka to calm my nerves and then headed to the bar. When I got there I parked and suddenly I was so scared I couldn’t move. I was sitting there dressed like a sissy slut, ready to go dance but I just couldn’t make myself move. I sat there for 30 minutes trying to make myself get out of the car. I was looking at BBC porn on my phone trying to work up courage when I heard a tap on my window. I looked up, surprised and saw a sexy black guy standing outside my car. I rolled down. "You're going to like it here Momma Spice, we get lots to eat and we getto play and have lots of friends," said Talia trying to get a look atthe newborn.An hour later when the infant woke hungry, I offered to help feed him."Sugar, does she know how?" already I was chewing a mouthful of SunFlower Seeds. She looked at me as I tossed my head back swallowing thenbegan working my jaw and neck around as Sugar had taught me. She wasright when she said that each time would be easier.Of course I was.