The next time I rolled over and faced the wall. Why didn’t I close the shades last night? Hell. I wasn’t even sure how I got to bed. I was so drun.... And now I was so hung over.I hugged the wall and tried to find a cool spot on my pillow to lay my head. You’d think in a hotel this expensive the bed would be a little farther from the wall so you could walk around it. The thought of walking made my stomach turn. If I could stand up, I could make it to the bathroom. I rolled toward the other edge. Serena is just as much a sister to you just as Lindsey is. I say not letting my oldest be mean But daddy.. Karen says looking sad No buts you love Serena as your sister right? I ask getting a nod to only continue Well she is trying to be a sister to Tina now be nice and let her. I think you owe Serena a apology. Karen comes up to us looking at Serena who is cuddled up to me. Serena Im sorry for making you cry. We will be big sisters together ok. Karen says as Serena sits up wiping her tears. Mom: why are you hugging me??Me: I love you mom and appreciate all you do for me, that’s all.I could not tell her how I feel on the fear that she might hate me or reject me and then I would have lost everything.Mom: I love you too.Me: Okay, I am going to play.I left to my friend’s house for a while. I came back home later that evening and put on a scary movieMe: Come and watch this movie with me.Mom: What movie is it?Me: It’s a horror movie.Mom: I get scared and won’t be able to sleep. If you. " I don't. The fact that you can love me as deeply as you do and yet hand me over to another woman beggars belief." No, Richard! I could satisfy you in bed. I could keep house for you. I'd do all that happily just to be around you. But, and this is the big thing, I couldn't keep up with you mentally or intellectually. Oh, I could give you sound advice and probably still will but I can't keep up with you, for example, on your music let alone the bloody crossword. In the end I'd bore you or.