On my behalf.” I looked down at my pruned fingers. “You also forget I’m used to macho men who don’t really express their feelings. My dad is a...good example of that.” I looked back at him and my heart thumped heavily at the expression I saw on his face, at how he restrained himself from holding me, likely thinking I’d shatter into a million pieces if he touched me. “Even if what you said was carefully constructed to come off as an insult, I read through it. I had no idea what you felt back then,. This was the bed that she and Demelza slept in. If this went wrong then they would have to leave, she couldn’t sleep in a bed with her sister where she had ... He kissed her. Not on the lips, nor the breast, nor yet the labia (especially not that, she needed patience). He kissed her ear, then her neck, then her eyes. She was relaxing. She could hear the delighted shouts of her sister outside, and she relaxed a little more. Now he kissed her lips. He kissed her lips and let his tongue just brush. She was confused because I told her the lie that I was walking home and we had just talking recently on the phone. So I insisted it must be near the house. She goes with me to walk the sidewalk where I wasn't really but for her I did and the lie. She has a cell phone and continues to call my phone, finally, he answers. He tells my mother that he found the phone near Circle K and he was up the road, not too far, doing laundry. So we get the car and go pick up my phone, she goes in while I stay. But I really wasn’t expecting that Fabian would… ‘Well, he insisted that we had to share a bedroom, with all that that implies. For appearances sake according to him, do I have to say more? It made me nothing more than an prostitute.’ I assume I was not the only one, to shake my head. To be honest with you, I was feeling quite sorry for the girl by then. Yeah well, I know Fabian’s type, there are too many men like him out there. ‘I didn’t like the man very much in the first place, too full of.