Brian would be the last child Rachel would ever have.Rachel, always slightly frail to begin with, quit work to be a full time mother. She is a good mo...her. Brian became her life.Soon after Brian is born, Justin a long distance truck driver, found a woman on the east coast. His stops at their home in Tennessee were fewer and further apart. Brian's parents got into a rut where they rarely saw each other.Rachel had been on her own for so long that she did not mind the loneliness. Besides she had. Like this." It's true, many men won't give you a second glance, and others willonly look at you with contempt. But it's their loss. Their loss. And Iassure you that many, many more will look upon you with intense desire."The Wizard maintained his gentle tone. "You know that I am able to lookinto your deepest soul," he said. "Yes, you wanted to be a woman, andyou needed to be one. It was necessary for your well-being and survival.But you also have an unusually strong bond with food. You love. Also, I liked them. I had todo some fairly fast learning how to behave with men and I nearly gotburned." I knew I was pretty and with my looks I would never have been short ofdates. I was luckier than most girls. I could afford to be veryselective about who I went out with, but when it started to interferewith my studies I got much more selective." She grinned. "I'm sorry,Martha, that sounds very conceited, but some I just didn't trust." Eventually I met this boy, well man. He's called Alan. Helen told me we could have sex, but needed to plan it around our family.I knew she was right but I guess I didn't want to grow up. I wanted to live life to the fullest. At least in the sexual department. I fantasized a lot and often wondered about how other men coped.Most people thought we had a happy marriage. I guess it was good comparing it to other people we knew. I was coach of the kids different ball teams. Helen was a girl scout leader and PTA member at the school. We both showed real.