By doing that my needs are fulfilled - because my deepest need is - to fulfill his needs.I sometimes have a picture of him in my mind when He is 70, t...nned and grinning with a sparkle in his eye holding my hand in a beach bar somewhere warm and knowing that his wife has been wearing his chains for over 30 years. I can submit control fully because I trust that He will protect our vanilla identities carefully at all times even when sharing me with others, virtually with images and video footage. I had the shades pulled on our windows about three-quarters of the way down.Sitting there I suddenly heard the distinctive sound of someone walking onto my porch. I looked up in time to see a pair of legs move past my window towards the front door. And those legs were wearing blue pants with a yellow stripe down the side!My life was passing in front of me. But no, the legs turned around and started to walk off. I thought I was safe. But of course, the legs turned back and walked purposefully. I rise slightly and hold him, crying myself. After carefully rehearsing the English, I say to him: ‘I’m glad you came.’ Still crying, he violently kisses my forehead and clutches me, rocking me. For the first time, I find comfort in a living being other than a camel. I realize that this was the answer to all my suffering. Andy. He is stupid to come all the way out here, but he saved me, and I owe my life to my friend. For weeks thereafter he splits his food with me, hunting for the both of us.. They had all been drinking hard and not stopping!” She stamped her boot clad feet in emphasis.He remembered that she didn’t drink, but evidently it was a touchy subject with her.“What are you going to do?” he asked.“Ride!” She answered, then hesitantly added, “With you?”“Cool!” Was his response.He got off his bike and they walked around to loosen up. Carolann stayed close near his side, and kept rubbing against his arm as they walked. She had something on her mind, and he would find out, soon..