. I love my parents and my mother is so understanding... but... I'm miles away from home and only ever talk to her on the phone... and it's so bloody ...xpensive. But even so, Mum is so caught up in her dogs and life up in Scotland that when I do talk to her I can't really talk to her about what I want to. OK, it's better when I go up to Scotland but I can't afford to do that often. Now I've fallen in love and there's no-one I can talk to... and I don't know what to do." Princess, as I told you. I wanted more and he knew it.A few times during the night when Ray was with Roslyn, rather than dancing with me, I saw him watching me and whispering to her, who each time smiled and went back to dancing with my husband. It was obvious that something was going on between them, although I was too naïve to realize it at the time.Eventually the night ended and we all retired to our suites. By then, I had been seduced and didn't even realize it. When John and I were in our suite, I was quiet with. I’m scared to fuck up. I’m scared to make a choice that hurts someone or that makes me miserable. I’m scared of being alone,” she said so quietly that once again, my ears had to strain to hear her.I pulled her up onto my lap and held her in my arms as she rested her head on my shoulder.“You’re not alone, CC. You have Amber and me now. You’re safe, protected, and loved. I don’t want to make your major life decisions for you, but we will all help you to make them. We will help by giving you good. We're very careful about hygiene and with whom we take these risks. Now that we see our children love sex the way we do, it's time to try the next logical step, and it's going to require you and I to perform twice as much if everybody's going to be in on it!"Cilla was stunned to say the least. Was she hearing this correctly? The sex wasn't a problem? Did her mother know about Sam (the dog)?The prospect of doing it with her father (and maybe her mother, too) didn't hold relish with Cilla! After.