I decided to just watch some TV and Nan informed me that she would stay upstairs and join me for a while. We watched a couple of comedy shows and the... Nan surprised me when she asked if I had any other DVD’s a bit more spicy that what we were watching. I told her that I had a couple more adult ones in my room. “Well Dan, why don’t we go and watch them on your TV then.” I was a bit taken aback at this suggestion, but who was I to complain. Dirty thoughts went through my mind as I decided on. "Dad, those suitcases can tie me to the money and to this," I replied as I showed him the pictures of all the carnage we had done at the villa. "These are the people who paid for the attack against us and they were planning another. The money was to pay for it. The suitcases have to be burned, all of them," I said.Dad looked at the pictures on the phone, "You did this?" Yes Dad; I ordered it and helped do it. I did what had to be done, like it or not," I replied. I played the short clip I had. What is stopping us? Do I want either of them at the party? Originally we put it together as a safe space for the rest of the trainees to be vulnerable.Do I want to be vulnerable and open with this reporter and with Leif? I’d like to be certainly. David and Leif go a long way back. But what will Leif think of Ariel? He keeps treating me as David, and that’s just not right.And a reporter? Being open and vulnerable in front of a reporter sounds kind of crazy. But Leif has been a good judge of. I hated that and not the guys or Lilly. I was hating the whole parochial prison of the mind. I was beginning to think getting poked in the butt was defiance to upset the old order, the artifacts of religious dominance. I liked that idea.I day dreamed about me doing the guys in front of class. I wondered how many guys from the class might try me, big football players doing me in the butt. I’d let them do me just to see the hierarchy squirm as I walked into the class room naked begging for it one.