I don’t . . ..” “Shush,” she said, “not now, Ishy.” “But Mona, how could you . . ..” I couldn’t get the rest of the words out. I w...sn’t even sure what words they should be.” “We’ll talk tomorrow,” she said, as she led me down the hallway and into the guest bathroom. She turned on the shower and waited for the water to heat up before adjusting it. “Clean yourself up now,” she said. I was in a trance. My mind was in suspended animation. I didn’t want to think about what had happened but images. Tom is very protective of those he loves and if I hadn't experienced part of what I'm going to tell you, I'd have never known either."I took the EZ chair across from them. I think some of this was going to be as stressful for me as it was going to be shocking to her. Shocking in that Dee's really not prepared for this level of reality yet. She has no idea about the level of participation I had with making sure her father couldn't hurt either of them. I have been working up to it slowly because. I made sure to sit away from any people I knew and found a seat up in thecorner. The teacher came in and I was in luck. He talked for maybe 10minutes and then told us he was going to put on an example TV episoderelevant to the topic. Thank god I thought, an easy lecture. The onlyproblem was that I didn't take in anything he said due to my situationand panicking, that I had no clue how this TV show was relevant. I wouldhave to message someone later for help.When the show finished I left as quick. "I skimmed ahead a few pages and settled in on the ripest part so far."Thursday, December 10 Oh, wow! Oh Shit! I don't believe this happened to me!Finals are starting Monday and I'm going ape ship with horniness. Did I write ship? I meant ape shit. Christ, I gotta get it together. She, I should say Julie, in case I read this years from now." Oh... why bother, I'll never forget this as long as I live." When I returned to the apartment early this evening, I heard what I thought was the TV in.